No words can express my feelings

 

Not easy to write this blog! I hope by doing so, it can help straighten my thoughts so that I can face the upcoming challenge with wisdom and courage.

The news came as a shock to us in mid February after doing a CT scan and biopsy, though the signs first appear in January 2021. Goldie is diagnosed with nascal carcinoma. It’s a rare form of cancer and is very aggressive. Though chemo don’t generally work, the Oncologist thinks given that Goldie’s current condition is clinically good (no sign of spreading at the moment), he believes there might be room for trial. Goldie had already had her first chemo (26/2) and taking Chinese medicine to supplement. I just pray that the Lord will guard and protect her, enrich the vets with wisdom, so that she can live the remaining days in love, comfort and happiness.

The Oncologist refused to forecast on her life expectancy, so we will treasure each day as a bonus. Hopefully being swamped with love (from human and pets), she can find the drive to fight on. My only hope is that she lives for herself and NOT for me, as I don’t want her to endure unnecessary pain/discomfort.

Frankly, presently, I’m psychologically better than a few weeks ago, but I know I still need some more time to fully accept this fact. Since it has happened, I can only accept, give her the most appropriate treatment (as per her health condition permits), and be prepared to let go when the time comes. It’s a fact in life - Every living creature has a beginning and an end. When the time comes, it will be sad, but we are privileged be in the same family.